Little Faith

Have you ever considered what life would be like if you were "third world"? How "well off" are you? Are you just making it by? I am finding out it my current trials that it is not wealth and riches that keep me afloat. I do not have one thing that was provided to me by my own means. My merit has not got me this far, nor my skills, or my degree. I have faith in God, and He provides. When I look back, very few things have been obtained by my own merit. I created a world all my own in one of my favorite games that I play. Then I look at it with wider eyes than what I use to play it. A game is all just some math mixed with shapes and colors created by people who know exactly how to keep people's attention solely focused on playing the games they create. I was so far lost into this game at one point that I lived and breathed the game. I was unproductive at work because I was coming up with new things to do in my game. I would constantly fight with my wife. I even missed out on sharing quality time because all I wanted to do was to play play play. I stopped playing so much and started focusing on what God wanted me to do. I have felt as if I made a big mistake, but I remember that He opened those doors for me. I know I am where I am for a reason. "What if I had just stayed!" What like the Israelites said when they were in the wilderness? No. For me where I was, was my Egypt. I wasn't in slavery like they were but we weren't getting to where God wanted us by doing the same old routine. We were comfortable. God doesn't call us to be comfortable. When we moved it was the biggest leap of faith I have ever taken. Every door for us to move had been opened. I keep praying God move me where you will and put me where you want me. Currently I feel like Job in the Bible. Everything seems like it is all going wrong. And some people are acting just like Job's friends. Those who speak before having Faith in God have no Faith to begin with. Read that sentence again. Those who speak before having Faith in God have no Faith to begin with. "Oh you of little faith." is what Jesus said to Peter as he stopped trusting Jesus on the water. I know in my heart that there is a purpose for everything that God has lead me to. I have the faith that I am where God wants me. I asked for guidance and so far any job that I have applied to has been rejected. My attitude for the rejection is, "That isn't where He wants me." If it isn't God's Will that's probably why it has failed. Remember Job when you are in trouble, He blessed God every time something went wrong. Praise God I am not yet dead, that means He still has a purpose for me here.